14wk - start of 2nd trimester.. finally

congratulations~ i finally feel what it's like to be sleepy during pregnancy *i guess the baby is starting to use my energy* i find myself waking up later and later and even unwilling to get up. perhaps it's the toilet breaks and thirsting for water at night, which however is less often than initial. perhaps it's the prompt waking at 5am which disturbs my sleep.. whatever it is, i just cant wake up at 9am anymore.. another 10mins is my morning plead.

there's another thing.. i m starting to see trend of less hunger.. usually the baby will crave, i mean really crave, for food between 2-5pm, but since last saturday he doesnt seem to crave, even after light lunch. ok, i'm glad i dont need to keep stuffing myself with food, yet i worry about this change. is my baby jeremiah growing well inside? the last gynecologist appointment was last friday, and everything is good and normal. this change started on saturday.. oh God, why so.. as much as i try not to think too much, believing he's still growing well and strong inside, i cant deny that worry. i still try to eat my normal meals, and pleased to hear my burps which indicates my baby is satisfied. i still try to stuff some snacks, especially fruits, between 2-5pm.

and, there's this itchness which caused me to worry but bacteria infection. i really didnt know what to do except to wash with saline water and pray like never before. bacteria has always been one of my fear list - what you cannot see can kill you. when this happened, i really feared for my baby inside, prayed like no other despite my weak faith. i know and i know my baby will grow well. Amen.

when my cg members came to visit me *cos joe is on assignment away from home*, i am really thankful for their company. suddenly this house is able to host some woman chat, and that pleases me. with their encouragement and care, i know my God is watching over us, over my baby. yes, there're times i feel so faithless, so weak to even believe He's actually here with us, but i cant deny He IS here with me. there're also some signs and co-incidents that are trying to provoke my fire for the Bible too. if it's not God, who would arrange so?