17wk - first wave of depression...

for days i feel very depressed, very discouraged in this family. one may think since mother has gone thru pregnancy, she should know but how wrong it is. instead of at least sympathising, 'you are weak lah' 'so troublesome' are her slogans to me. yes, every pregnancy is different but if she can sympathise with those preg women in her temple community why cant she be so for her own preg daughter. without joe around, i already feel so lost in support. i miss joe,my laogong... everytime i feel so bad physically n emotionally, i tell myself i still have a loving husband who supports me. it comforts me so much when we finally skype at night.. i wish we have not been separated. every discomfort, every hunger, my joe will always be with me to go thru it. pregnancy is not easy for me, i dont expect everyone to understand or even feel my discomfort,but at least dont stab me when i'm trying to be strong for joe, for my baby. so often now, i am so tempted to not to have baby.. every night i cried myself to sleep.. i dont want depression to attack,but i really feel so depressed in this family.