16wk - arrived in sg.. to realize i'm overweight

times flies when i m back in sg.. everything happened so fast (and efficiently) that the few days with my loving joe seems to fly by. before i know, he had to leave to return to taiwan for work.. it'll be 4-5months later for our reunion. i really miss my laogong.. thinking back, even though he's only here for 5days, he *not 'we' cos he was the only one doing* actually had done a lot of transformations to my room! upon arrival, we managed to make a short trip to babyfair; looked for new bed *i'm surprised the purchase was so smooth and quick decision despite first shop*; cleared my wardrode and bookshelf; collected his work equipment; went to see sg gynecologist (who happened to be my very first gyn.. that's years ago lah); and transformed my room from 'my' room into 'our' room. so much has done in few days.. so much so that everything in this room now has his presence and efforts.. reminds me of him even more.. i miss him even
ok now.. back to the little one - it's 90% confirmed to be little boy. a very active boy who keeps moving around in my womb, making it so hard to get proper clear scan. but i thank God for dr henry cheng - he's such a dear gynecologist who can tease and joke with me. i am so relived that his chinese is as good as his english too, so  can understand. all in all, i feel so comfortable with dr henri can trust him. when he told me i'm overweight, i was shocked yet thrilled! the term overweight has never been in my dictionary, yet i am now!! hahaaa.. thanks for my little boss' every 2hrs meals. after gyn's clarification, it turns out to be my high gastric acid rather than his hunger..heehee he's just a scapegoat till now. i have to control my meals frequency now, even though i'm pleased with this overweight at 47kg. *i wonder why taiwan gyn didnt explain to me*

so, jeremiah, mummy has to reduce meals frequency now.. but i promise daddy to take care of you, and i will. be good insde, and grow healthily.

15wk - so.. this is the mythical 2nd trimester feeling

i think i m beginning to understand what's hipe of second trimester is about cos i feel my energy is higher these days despite my home alone boredom. at least i feel better when walking.

believe it or not, i didnt feel as afraid when i went for gyn checkup last night. lying on the bed used to bring fear n doubts but yesterday i know everything will be alright, no more shivers. indeed, God is good. my little baby is actively growing well inside me. perhaps he's not in good mood, that's why he's sleeping downwards - difficult to see his face. but i see his little hands n a bit of his legs... his spine bone is growing well.. n a little tummy. he really like to move around, so much so it's even harder to see a proper scan. but i thank God for the gyn last night *not the infamous busy gyn* he really took more time to scan around n explain what is what. anyway, since thatnwas the last gyn checkup in taiwan, i shall not harp further about the doc.

i really looking forward to fly back to singapore, even askee my mum to prepare chingteng dessert. the only sadness is joe wont be around me in singapore, i will have to be fully independent as a mother, work towards our family reunion when duedate is near.

after seeing little jeremiah, i know i have to provide for him... i m a mother now.

14wk - start of 2nd trimester.. finally

congratulations~ i finally feel what it's like to be sleepy during pregnancy *i guess the baby is starting to use my energy* i find myself waking up later and later and even unwilling to get up. perhaps it's the toilet breaks and thirsting for water at night, which however is less often than initial. perhaps it's the prompt waking at 5am which disturbs my sleep.. whatever it is, i just cant wake up at 9am anymore.. another 10mins is my morning plead.

there's another thing.. i m starting to see trend of less hunger.. usually the baby will crave, i mean really crave, for food between 2-5pm, but since last saturday he doesnt seem to crave, even after light lunch. ok, i'm glad i dont need to keep stuffing myself with food, yet i worry about this change. is my baby jeremiah growing well inside? the last gynecologist appointment was last friday, and everything is good and normal. this change started on saturday.. oh God, why so.. as much as i try not to think too much, believing he's still growing well and strong inside, i cant deny that worry. i still try to eat my normal meals, and pleased to hear my burps which indicates my baby is satisfied. i still try to stuff some snacks, especially fruits, between 2-5pm.

and, there's this itchness which caused me to worry but bacteria infection. i really didnt know what to do except to wash with saline water and pray like never before. bacteria has always been one of my fear list - what you cannot see can kill you. when this happened, i really feared for my baby inside, prayed like no other despite my weak faith. i know and i know my baby will grow well. Amen.

when my cg members came to visit me *cos joe is on assignment away from home*, i am really thankful for their company. suddenly this house is able to host some woman chat, and that pleases me. with their encouragement and care, i know my God is watching over us, over my baby. yes, there're times i feel so faithless, so weak to even believe He's actually here with us, but i cant deny He IS here with me. there're also some signs and co-incidents that are trying to provoke my fire for the Bible too. if it's not God, who would arrange so?

12wk - just an update

still the same.. agony of pregnancy. hungry every 2hrs yet no appetite.. full of energy yet nothing to do.. honestly i have been playing bingo games so often that i'm so bored yet i know i cant let go..  meal delivery this week looks better that last week - i've been eating SAME FOOD for whole of last week, no variety at all.. but i still managed to force some of it down into my throat. *so proud of myself*

i'm in my 12th week by now.. stabilizing, less pain, less freq urination.

12wk - agony of eating

it's hard getting the 'right' food into your mouth when you are pregnant. as much as i'm not really used to the lack of variety in taiwanese food, my little one is even more picky in food taste. fyi, kaohsiung is not as cosmopolitian as taipei where more food variety is; here mostly are braised food cos anything can be braised in dark soya sauce and goes well with rice. as much as i tried to live by all the braised stuff, my little jeremiah is stubborn against fish soup. the smell of fish really puts off any appetite at once, leaving me helpless but to force myself to eat whatever i can in order to provide some nutrients.

i have never thought eating could be such an obligation till now.. u know you must eat something yet your mouth n taste just refuse to obey willingly. yes, you can suggest having fruits, but strange enough, fruits variety in taiwan is fewer (and more expensive) than singapore. anyway, i have to be careful with fruits cos fruitose is causing some bloatings n discomfort... sigh. can the 40weeks be over soon? it's only 11weeks n 5days today ....

11wk - i've gained weight!!

to those who dont know me - it's easier for me to lose weight in days, rather than gaining. everyone i know has embarked on this 'help janet gain weight' project but resulted failure. yes, i could eat but the moment i hit stress, my weight will drop by 1-2kg in just few days. there goes their months of effort on gaining.

now that i'm pregnant, i'm so worried that jeremiah wont get enough nutrition cos i cant seem to eat enough for myself, let alone for two persons. on the last consultation, i lost weight from 43kg to 42kg in difference of 5days! my panick button was activated - besides fastfood and 'supposedly' healthy subway, what else can i eat without moving around? confinement meal delivery rejected my order cos their meals consist of chinese herbal which is not suitable for pre-nascence. omg, what shall i do??... no maid, no one to cook for me while joe is at work; and i need the nutrients~! this is the agony of home alone+bedbound pregnancy..

in midst of our worry, joe managed to come up with the idea of asking the food store downstairs to arrange simple meals delivery. though the idea was great, i really didnt have much hope cos it's not common for people in business to go beyond their line of products, just to cater to one customer, and let alone delivery. but to my surprise, they agree!! since this monday (10th June), i finally had my first taste of simple home-cooked meal! ever since i've been in kaohsiung, no takeaway could satisfy the craving of simple home-cooked food. *i really miss mum's cooking, no matter how rojak it is* i really thank God for this amazing arrangement - it's totally out of ordinary expectation. i'm very very touched by the lady's boss understanding and compassion on my situation. frankly, my heart was so so so full of gladness and thanksgiving when the first meal arrived. i was just so so touched.

well, that settled my eating problem though my tummy still cramp in pain.. hence i'm back to gynecologist again. *i really fear going to gynecologist - lying on the bed, you really dont know what he'll say after scan; and i fear for the worst* that's when i realised i've gained weight!! when nickii visited me and told me it's normal to lose some weight initially, i was half-doubt. now i saw i'm actually weighing at 44kg, i was shocked! i'm happy i'm in awe~! i actually gained weight though i ate nothing much. all i can say - God is in control!! everything from before conception to everything happened and happening, God has everything arranged! Thank You, Abba Father! thank You! though i'm of no faith, yet You are faithful and true! Thank You, Jesus!!

9wk - eat sleep eat

hi people, after the episode with my mother-in-law, i guess i have not update you that her seriously bad cough virus caught up with her the next day hence my ordeal ended as suddenly as it started. not that it's so bad to have her around, but it's just so sudden and uninformed! and .. ok, this part i'm complaining - she only cooks for her portion; when i woke up after nap, i have to cook for myself though i'd have gone out to grab some food, if she's not around. that cooking part is really tedious~  anyway she's back to her home now, resting and recovering from her very very bad cough.

putting mother-in-law's kind peripeteia aside, my little jeremiah has not been very good boy past days either, esp when his daddy is at home. his feeding hours generally are 10am, 12noon, 2pm, 4pm, 6pm and 8pm. and after every hamster-bites, he wants his 15min to 1hr rest, which practically demands his mother (ie your truly) to eat-sleep-eat every 2hours. and you know, sometimes by the time food is ready esp a long queue on weekends, it'll be some time past his feeding time. therefore, little boss inside will throw his temper by rejecting any food that comes after his time, declaring my body a war zone. his dad will then be so anxious cos i've lost 1kg in past 5days. *what can i do - my little boss controls my diet now* 

went to gynecologist on saturday, immediately after my chinese physician suggest i should cos i've some triggerings of pain in lower abdomen. that's why i realised i lost so much weight in mere few days, that's when his daddy started to be so anxious even though his son is safely growing in my womb with regular normal fast heartbeats. that's also when i'm kinda ordered to stay in bed, having permission to turn on aircon all day in this summer heat. *great, now i totally feel like a pig - eat sleep eat with minimum movement* 

my goodness, i cant wait for all these to be over.. where's the pregnancy glow which conned so many ladies to be pregnant?! and i cant wait to be back in singapore where all my food cravings are~~