11wk - i've gained weight!!

to those who dont know me - it's easier for me to lose weight in days, rather than gaining. everyone i know has embarked on this 'help janet gain weight' project but resulted failure. yes, i could eat but the moment i hit stress, my weight will drop by 1-2kg in just few days. there goes their months of effort on gaining.

now that i'm pregnant, i'm so worried that jeremiah wont get enough nutrition cos i cant seem to eat enough for myself, let alone for two persons. on the last consultation, i lost weight from 43kg to 42kg in difference of 5days! my panick button was activated - besides fastfood and 'supposedly' healthy subway, what else can i eat without moving around? confinement meal delivery rejected my order cos their meals consist of chinese herbal which is not suitable for pre-nascence. omg, what shall i do??... no maid, no one to cook for me while joe is at work; and i need the nutrients~! this is the agony of home alone+bedbound pregnancy..

in midst of our worry, joe managed to come up with the idea of asking the food store downstairs to arrange simple meals delivery. though the idea was great, i really didnt have much hope cos it's not common for people in business to go beyond their line of products, just to cater to one customer, and let alone delivery. but to my surprise, they agree!! since this monday (10th June), i finally had my first taste of simple home-cooked meal! ever since i've been in kaohsiung, no takeaway could satisfy the craving of simple home-cooked food. *i really miss mum's cooking, no matter how rojak it is* i really thank God for this amazing arrangement - it's totally out of ordinary expectation. i'm very very touched by the lady's boss understanding and compassion on my situation. frankly, my heart was so so so full of gladness and thanksgiving when the first meal arrived. i was just so so touched.

well, that settled my eating problem though my tummy still cramp in pain.. hence i'm back to gynecologist again. *i really fear going to gynecologist - lying on the bed, you really dont know what he'll say after scan; and i fear for the worst* that's when i realised i've gained weight!! when nickii visited me and told me it's normal to lose some weight initially, i was half-doubt. now i saw i'm actually weighing at 44kg, i was shocked! i'm happy i'm in awe~! i actually gained weight though i ate nothing much. all i can say - God is in control!! everything from before conception to everything happened and happening, God has everything arranged! Thank You, Abba Father! thank You! though i'm of no faith, yet You are faithful and true! Thank You, Jesus!!